What if everything happened just the way I thought it would. What if every dreamed dreamt established itself in real life just as it does in the heavenly realm of sleep?
What if every negative thought was somehow immediately consumed by something great. An overbearing reminder that positivity trumps anything contrary. What if, just what if, I only answered to the name that was gifted to me by the Name Above all Names and no other name ruffled or flared my feathers. What if the rain completely stopped and there was only sunshine and no clouds? What if there were only miles and miles of outstretched rainbows with the conspicuous reminder of the the promise at every turn?
What if, just what if, there were only mountain highs and no valley lows. Just to think, what if.
Maybe I’m the ultimate dreamer, but I sense this to be a very near reality. The creation of something great dwells within me, and what if, just what if I have been my own hindrance the entire time. Causing my own disruptions and distractions. Creating stumbles along my own path.
What if recent periods of isolation were seen as time away from earthly realities while still being physically present. What if it meant that it was my time to be motionless and silent so that the voice of The Lord truly becomes my inner peace and the guide that I follow at every turn for every need. Just what if my desire to be connected, understood and accepted vanished and I was released of the notion that the world needs me to carry, seamlessly, the weight of others on my shoulders. What if I really became as free as a bird while soaring through the skies as light as a feather. What if… What if every pain I’ve ever experienced taught me a lesson that I needed to learn in order to teach others while simultaneously bringing awareness to self? What if the next right step was one that was slowly anticipated but my control was relinquished.
Just what if the life before me is the greatest untold journey of self- revelation and truth and boundless opportunities. What if my wildest written manifestations can be realized and what if, just what if, the beginning of beginning again is the beauty for ashes that shall be traded for great, great joy.
I’ve given my yes many, many times before, but what if this one was a wholehearted, intentional yes. One used to thrust me into position- into my rightful position. The position where nothing of the past matters because the ultimate price has been paid, and God awaits me because He never left.
Shifts are hard, and so are the seasons in which they occur. Life will have moments of balance and unbalance, and just as before, The Father has aided me in weathering every bout of turbulence. And here I stand, unworthy and chosen, again.
Heart stable. Head bowed. Hands lifted. It’s still a beautiful reflection of me.
The expiration is here and what if, just what if it’s my turn?
My dear daughter, Continue to incline your heart to His voice and heart as He is clearly speaking and pouring into you. Deep revelations from His Holy Spirit.
I can tell God is speaking to you. It’s your time.
Hey friend! As usual such a deep post that seems to hit me at just the right time and give me pause to have a deep and sometimes hard talk with myself. I know that God has a purpose for you and whatever that purpose is, I am blessed to have crossed your path on this great journey. I hope that you are living your best life. I know your beautiful babies are thriving.